Tuesday, 11 December 2012
some strangers i liked
Wanted to meet Cook Cook in dreams but dreamt of Lucifer, GH and HZ, how strange
Tuesday, 4 December 2012
輸
我感覺得到我開始成為是次感情的輸家
我感覺得到男人漸漸的不上心與怠慢
我感覺得到我是會為走到盡頭而終究難過
我感覺得到我想對方的時間比對方想我的多
我感覺得到對方付出的愈來愈少我卻愈來愈珍惜
我感覺得到男人漸漸的不上心與怠慢
我感覺得到我是會為走到盡頭而終究難過
我感覺得到我想對方的時間比對方想我的多
我感覺得到對方付出的愈來愈少我卻愈來愈珍惜
Thursday, 29 November 2012
Very Important
- Passivity hurts you too much. As a existentialist, or whatever you name your philosophy, you know that the only way won't make you regret is to CHOOSE, PROACTIVELY.
Try to avoid letting people make decisions for you. - 憤怒是非常重要的東西,它通常是熱情的前身,
在它蛻變之前,所有的熱情都來自於一股好奇和憤怒。
所以請珍惜你的憤怒,去問問題,也去找答案。
我認為這不但是你們人生最大的收穫,
這也會幫助我們停止不斷去問「到底我們能怎麼做」,
而是「我現在能怎麼做」、或是「任何一件小事情我就去做」。
憤怒其實是非常非常重要的力量。
A great note from Zhang Xuan to an Enneagram No.9.
Keep an eye on your every single emotion which will be your important guiding light. - YOU MUST TRUST YOUR OWN JUDGEMENT. Otherwise it must be the beginning of another tragedy. Like that pain you experienced in the past 3 years...
Write down your observation even when you can't google similar voices.
- TEARS are come out of TRUTH. Not insanity. They are much much more honest than your mind.
- RESPECT YOURSELF. You deserve it. Your ability deserves to be recognized. You deserve to be loved by someone you love someday. You deserve to be surrounded by nice and intelligent and thoughtful people. You deserve to live the way you like.
Wednesday, 14 November 2012
all-time favorite
I just dreamt of you this morning, my all-time favorite S
Nothing's have been happier than you holding my hands
Even though I think the past 3 years is a waste of time, you are still the best gem I found
I didnt know I would grow up this quickly and forgot everything I used to pursue
No my boyfriend does not know a thing I like, not cinema, not 1960s, not Hong Kong, not politics
nothing fun
I wonder would we still find a way back to each other
before you found the girl you love
before I flow with my destiny
It's been a year since the days in SunGing and JinYan. I know I still miss you. very much.
Nothing's have been happier than you holding my hands
Even though I think the past 3 years is a waste of time, you are still the best gem I found
I didnt know I would grow up this quickly and forgot everything I used to pursue
No my boyfriend does not know a thing I like, not cinema, not 1960s, not Hong Kong, not politics
nothing fun
I wonder would we still find a way back to each other
before you found the girl you love
before I flow with my destiny
It's been a year since the days in SunGing and JinYan. I know I still miss you. very much.
Thursday, 1 November 2012
not good
愉快的日子幾乎想都沒想過文字。Live right in the moment,笑笑鬧鬧,跟他在一起以前的日子看起來已很遙遠,也沒有怎麼想過未來。心裡會浮現的字句,就是Enjoy the moment, full stop. Nothing else.
最值得用文字记起来的片刻,还是没有记下。
人生头一次这样被宠爱,头一次有人把所有时间用来奉陪我,头一次觉得有人没暗地看不起我,头一次有人关心我生活里每一个细节,头一次有人跟我相处了整天整夜到第二天中午还是准时来电。我也从不那么有自信,想什么时候拥抱一个人都有人抱回来;想到黄色笑话可以马上告诉人;午夜感到不开心可以在怀抱里尽情地哭,还有人把你当小孩耐心地哄。
这一切我都充满感激。
我不知道要怎么报答。我不知道怎么办。拿了他那么多,总觉得自己要么是骗子,要么是出卖自己。男朋友?我从来不能光明正大的向别人介绍这个人。
尤其是当我知道这一切一定会有结束的一天。
星期六晚上,我看了他好久好久,还是吐出了那一句话。
我对你一直都没什么感觉。
多么锋利的十一个字。
我恐怕永远都收不回来了。
从来没见过你那般惊呆。
正仆街。
只有sorry,关于那句话的道歉后悔,一点都说不出来。我知道我不停流眼泪不只是因为亲自伤害了深爱我的你,也是因为我知道我说的是从来都在逃避的真话。
然后一切变了。相处脱离了“对“的感觉。我不知所措。
最值得用文字记起来的片刻,还是没有记下。
人生头一次这样被宠爱,头一次有人把所有时间用来奉陪我,头一次觉得有人没暗地看不起我,头一次有人关心我生活里每一个细节,头一次有人跟我相处了整天整夜到第二天中午还是准时来电。我也从不那么有自信,想什么时候拥抱一个人都有人抱回来;想到黄色笑话可以马上告诉人;午夜感到不开心可以在怀抱里尽情地哭,还有人把你当小孩耐心地哄。
这一切我都充满感激。
我不知道要怎么报答。我不知道怎么办。拿了他那么多,总觉得自己要么是骗子,要么是出卖自己。男朋友?我从来不能光明正大的向别人介绍这个人。
尤其是当我知道这一切一定会有结束的一天。
星期六晚上,我看了他好久好久,还是吐出了那一句话。
我对你一直都没什么感觉。
多么锋利的十一个字。
我恐怕永远都收不回来了。
从来没见过你那般惊呆。
正仆街。
只有sorry,关于那句话的道歉后悔,一点都说不出来。我知道我不停流眼泪不只是因为亲自伤害了深爱我的你,也是因为我知道我说的是从来都在逃避的真话。
然后一切变了。相处脱离了“对“的感觉。我不知所措。
Friday, 10 August 2012
guess I've changed into a grumpy person now...
so easy to get mad at others
rather than being silent and let others say whatever they want and humiliate me
am i getting stronger or just my ego?
so easy to get mad at others
rather than being silent and let others say whatever they want and humiliate me
am i getting stronger or just my ego?
Thursday, 19 July 2012
oh it's already July fuckin nineteenth!
中文版
Layout
Portfolio website
Review resume cover letter?
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中文版
Layout
Portfolio website
Review resume cover letter?
----> GO
singtao grafik
Thursday, 5 July 2012
6 zzzzz
7 move to downtown
find house near METRO!!!
FURNISHED is a must
bank account
7 move to downtown
find house near METRO!!!
FURNISHED is a must
bank account
Wednesday, 27 June 2012
奪回主權
做自己的主人
好準備為更精彩的事情奉獻所有心力
- 生活裡面每一個component 都盡量由自己initiate。aware, aware, aware。看來要戒網了!
Sunday, 24 June 2012
點解每次個腦好似諗左好多野,寫出來的字還是個個都差唔多樣?當文字(其實應該是我的表達力)失效時,我可以如何去記下所思呢?唉,愈寫愈篤眼篤鼻,我以前都唔會咁覺得架。
Wednesday, 20 June 2012
一些建議,記於西安之行後
- 要做強者。不做玩偶。不要再容許自己講埋什麼請尊重我之類的說話。這麼抽象的概念對於他人,毫無意義。
- 我希望你保持自己的意見,相信自己,不為他人一句否定的說話以至嘲笑所動搖。一句講曬:道不同,不相為謀。
唔好再犧牲青春去做父母自以為好的事情!當我求下你!你要去多幾多次旅行團去用奢華感受自己的浪費、用睇SHOW 去感受自己可以無意義到什麼程度、用走馬看花和被困遊客商店去感受人生徹底在自己掌握以外的絕望?然後我阿媽話我應該買酒店PACKAGE和跟團。否定一切編排、尋找、偶遇、挫折、成功對我的重大意義。真的不再認為血緣關係就能表示這是你們是家人,正面思考就能讓你像姊姊一樣跟他們有什麼默契。COME ON. 每個人都有責任尋找自己真正的家。 - 真係覺得其實世上好多人都係變態,對住和背住人的兩副面口不一致得比什麼暴力狂都要令人心寒。totally unacceptable. 不過他們是大多數罷了。
- 流動比停係度令人思想清晰多了(不過一坐返係屋企電腦前已衰)。
- 堅持!!!過了關口便是大直路!無呃你!!!
- 拒絕什麼敵不動我不動--做主動才是勝利者!!
Sunday, 3 June 2012
- The suffocating feeling comes right after the end of Noble Silence. It doesn't even matter if I've learned anything in the course, or how it helped me understand myself, if I had terminated my suffering, whatsoever... The truth gets ridiculously obvious.What I did in these 10 days is an extreme escape from life, from making choices, from freedom, you name it. Am I doing any spiritual searching like what I did before? am I? or maybe, I've got the final answer already, and its name is Existentialism. My pain does not come from craving. Maybe not even hatred. But it comes from the lost of passion. Helplessly numb. Buddha, how shall I rebuild my attachment to things in life?
- Thanks to the discourses, I finally got a more objective (hope I'm not fooling myself- it is so easy for one to get fooled by their arrogance when it comes to objectivity and rationality) view on Christianity. Is that what the Zen called "see the mountains once again as mountains"?!
I mean, if you substitute the word 'Jesus' or 'God' with kindness, or happiness, everything makes sense again, isn't it? Take away the parts you find unacceptable and remain those which help. How people create God in their own image really pissed me off... but there is too much good to be Christian. I mean it. My parents and sister are the best examples- loving and kind human beings. Prayers before meals are not necessarily meaningless rituals even though the food is obviously not prepared by God (if God exists) - if it cultivates one's gratitude, and gratitude is scientifically proven helpful to mental health.
Very simple and obvious! Why does it take me so long to REALLY UNDERSTAND?
When we were taught about the 10 Paramis, I thought of the fruits of the Holy Spirit. And I am thankful such words are deeply rooted in my head :-)
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. — Galatians 5:22-23
- Logic, morality, theories are not the question. "DOES IT WORK?" is.
Wednesday, 23 May 2012
Tuesday, 22 May 2012
Wednesday, 9 May 2012
Guide for Jennifer Kwok
What works:
What doesn't:
back to depression and solitude
What I have to stop doing:
Learn from Experiences:
- Physical Exercises.
- Meditation / mindful activities.
What doesn't:
- googling every single detail. 通常去旅行時睇返之前的安排紙都覺得做的RESEARCH 沒什麼用.
- 無行程先出發,起身唔知做乜好。
- Quotes... sadly they made you even more confused
back to depression and solitude
What I have to stop doing:
- letting facebook dominate my life
- doing nothing. stop doing doing nothing
- overthinking. overresearching.
Whai I have to start doing:
- Resume and portfolio
- Language
- Check out information of art schools
- Quick decision might not turn out to be the best, but usually doesn't harm much (as much as indecision. 折磨)
- You always remember what you actually DID better than your great philosophical thoughts.
Saturday, 5 May 2012
邪教!
http://www.richyli.com/column/sect/sekt_checklist.htm
RESEARCH 下邪教兩個字,睇住個表,過往經驗逐一浮現!
也諗起一直BUY的IDEOLOGIES.
一入沙浸深似海
大學OCAMP
18268
national inflation association...
NLF
OSHO....
記憶課程
仲有未親身接觸過的傳銷
我唔想踏實走大多數人走的路不QUESTION
但一個人的力量太小,如何在亂世中明辨是非???(這一句好有基督味)
有時愈想覺醒就愈快上當!
好想參加十日內觀。想起來實在是孤注一擲,一次徹底的打開頭腦,讓陌生人在潛意識層面上施手術。要麼開始覺醒、要麼被偷偷注入思想,無可回頭。
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學術呢?象牙塔會不會才是最危險荒謬的地方?
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想起九月開始我真係成個人BAD TASTE 咗. 而三月起我食的書更大眾化了.
是否OPEN-MINDED 之過?
急於尋找救贖? 太依賴外來幫助以致漸漸喪失自我的信念和品味?
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somehow 讀左咁多書, 就算是修畢所謂的Critical theories / critical thinking,獨立思考能力還是沒進反退。學到的不外乎是聽了一堆理論,然後把一些較強的收藏。
RESEARCH 下邪教兩個字,睇住個表,過往經驗逐一浮現!
也諗起一直BUY的IDEOLOGIES.
一入沙浸深似海
大學OCAMP
18268
national inflation association...
NLF
OSHO....
記憶課程
仲有未親身接觸過的傳銷
我唔想踏實走大多數人走的路不QUESTION
但一個人的力量太小,如何在亂世中明辨是非???(這一句好有基督味)
有時愈想覺醒就愈快上當!
好想參加十日內觀。想起來實在是孤注一擲,一次徹底的打開頭腦,讓陌生人在潛意識層面上施手術。要麼開始覺醒、要麼被偷偷注入思想,無可回頭。
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學術呢?象牙塔會不會才是最危險荒謬的地方?
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想起九月開始我真係成個人BAD TASTE 咗. 而三月起我食的書更大眾化了.
是否OPEN-MINDED 之過?
急於尋找救贖? 太依賴外來幫助以致漸漸喪失自我的信念和品味?
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somehow 讀左咁多書, 就算是修畢所謂的Critical theories / critical thinking,獨立思考能力還是沒進反退。學到的不外乎是聽了一堆理論,然後把一些較強的收藏。
Wednesday, 2 May 2012
我想承認SHAW PHOTO DAY 果日我根本是不想出現
我想承認我著袍根本一點高興的感覺都沒有
我想承認那對我來說是恥辱
因為它代表我把最青春的日子埋葬在不喜愛的事情上面 純粹是為了一張紙
我想承認跟家人拍畢業照裡頭的全是強顏歡笑
我想承認我一點也不喜歡手中的公仔 一如他們從來不斷供給物質卻沒嘗試了解我的喜好
我想承認我從懷疑到現在花費三年親身證實了,有美國唔留返香港讀書是世上最ON9的決定
我想承認自己是太太太膽小了,不敢反思,反思後亦不敢以行動反抗
我想承認自己受惰性操控了,懶到不出手改變自己的生命
我想承認長期待在這工廠我的視野變窄了,雖然也有在學術方面開過眼界,但相對之下世界之大,跟整堆年齡背景種族一模一樣的人一起背幾百張 POWERPOINT 算是什麼?
我想承認過去三年我在掙扎所以更累
我想承認我現在好撚驚
我想承認好撚驚背後是好撚自卑
我想承認廿二歲來說我的見識真的好少
我想承認我現在根本沒有足夠的技能和經驗去投入任何事業
我想承認我看到自己那一身缺點,光是不擅辭令已教我不知如何所謂在社會上立足
我想承認更大鑊的是我還沒有自己的想法
我想承認我只會埋怨但面對任何人回過來的一句 咁你想點? 我啞左
我想承認我還沒能為自己的人生作出任何選擇,但更加唔想有人幫
好的一方面是
總算是學到教訓
希望真的醒悟了 不再懶惰猶豫不決
咁大個人了
從現在開始積極為自己的人生作出選擇
信自己!信自己!信自己!
我想承認我著袍根本一點高興的感覺都沒有
我想承認那對我來說是恥辱
因為它代表我把最青春的日子埋葬在不喜愛的事情上面 純粹是為了一張紙
我想承認跟家人拍畢業照裡頭的全是強顏歡笑
我想承認我一點也不喜歡手中的公仔 一如他們從來不斷供給物質卻沒嘗試了解我的喜好
我想承認我從懷疑到現在花費三年親身證實了,有美國唔留返香港讀書是世上最ON9的決定
我想承認自己是太太太膽小了,不敢反思,反思後亦不敢以行動反抗
我想承認自己受惰性操控了,懶到不出手改變自己的生命
我想承認長期待在這工廠我的視野變窄了,雖然也有在學術方面開過眼界,但相對之下世界之大,跟整堆年齡背景種族一模一樣的人一起背幾百張 POWERPOINT 算是什麼?
我想承認過去三年我在掙扎所以更累
我想承認我現在好撚驚
我想承認好撚驚背後是好撚自卑
我想承認廿二歲來說我的見識真的好少
我想承認我現在根本沒有足夠的技能和經驗去投入任何事業
我想承認我看到自己那一身缺點,光是不擅辭令已教我不知如何所謂在社會上立足
我想承認更大鑊的是我還沒有自己的想法
我想承認我只會埋怨但面對任何人回過來的一句 咁你想點? 我啞左
我想承認我還沒能為自己的人生作出任何選擇,但更加唔想有人幫
好的一方面是
總算是學到教訓
希望真的醒悟了 不再懶惰猶豫不決
咁大個人了
從現在開始積極為自己的人生作出選擇
信自己!信自己!信自己!
Sunday, 22 April 2012
VIA
Your Top Character Strength
Love of learning
You love learning new things, whether in a class or on your own. You have always loved school, reading, and museums-anywhere and everywhere there is an opportunity to learn.
You love learning new things, whether in a class or on your own. You have always loved school, reading, and museums-anywhere and everywhere there is an opportunity to learn.
Your Second Character Strength
Appreciation of Beauty & Excellence
You notice and appreciate beauty, excellence, and/or skilled performance in all domains of life, from nature to art to mathematics to science to everyday experience.
You notice and appreciate beauty, excellence, and/or skilled performance in all domains of life, from nature to art to mathematics to science to everyday experience.
Your Third Character Strength
Forgiveness
You forgive those who have done you wrong. You always give people a second chance. Your guiding principle is mercy and not revenge.
You forgive those who have done you wrong. You always give people a second chance. Your guiding principle is mercy and not revenge.
Your Fourth Character Strength
Fairness
Treating all people fairly is one of your abiding principles. You do not let your personal feelings bias your decisions about other people. You give everyone a chance.
Treating all people fairly is one of your abiding principles. You do not let your personal feelings bias your decisions about other people. You give everyone a chance.
Your Fifth Character Strength
Judgment
Thinking things through and examining them from all sides are important aspects of who you are. You do not jump to conclusions, and you rely only on solid evidence to make your decisions. You are able to change your mind.
Thinking things through and examining them from all sides are important aspects of who you are. You do not jump to conclusions, and you rely only on solid evidence to make your decisions. You are able to change your mind.
Character Strength #6
Creativity
Thinking of new ways to do things is a crucial part of who you are. You are never content with doing something the conventional way if a better way is possible.
Thinking of new ways to do things is a crucial part of who you are. You are never content with doing something the conventional way if a better way is possible.
Character Strength #7
Honesty
You are an honest person, not only by speaking the truth but by living your life in a genuine and authentic way. You are down to earth and without pretense; you are a "real" person.
You are an honest person, not only by speaking the truth but by living your life in a genuine and authentic way. You are down to earth and without pretense; you are a "real" person.
Character Strength #8
Kindness
You are kind and generous to others, and you are never too busy to do a favor. You enjoy doing good deeds for others, even if you do not know them well.
You are kind and generous to others, and you are never too busy to do a favor. You enjoy doing good deeds for others, even if you do not know them well.
Character Strength #9
Humility
You do not seek the spotlight, preferring to let your accomplishments speak for themselves. You do not regard yourself as special, and others recognize and value your modesty.
You do not seek the spotlight, preferring to let your accomplishments speak for themselves. You do not regard yourself as special, and others recognize and value your modesty.
Character Strength #10
Prudence
You are a careful person, and your choices are consistently prudent ones. You do not say or do things that you might later regret.
You are a careful person, and your choices are consistently prudent ones. You do not say or do things that you might later regret.
Character Strength #11
Love
You value close relations with others, in particular those in which sharing and caring are reciprocated. The people to whom you feel most close are the same people who feel most close to you.
You value close relations with others, in particular those in which sharing and caring are reciprocated. The people to whom you feel most close are the same people who feel most close to you.
Character Strength #12
Curiosity
You are curious about everything. You are always asking questions, and you find all subjects and topics fascinating. You like exploration and discovery.
You are curious about everything. You are always asking questions, and you find all subjects and topics fascinating. You like exploration and discovery.
Character Strength #13
Bravery
You are a courageous person who does not shrink from threat, challenge, difficulty, or pain. You speak up for what is right even if there is opposition. You act on your convictions.
You are a courageous person who does not shrink from threat, challenge, difficulty, or pain. You speak up for what is right even if there is opposition. You act on your convictions.
Character Strength #14
Humor
You like to laugh and tease. Bringing smiles to other people is important to you. You try to see the light side of all situations.
You like to laugh and tease. Bringing smiles to other people is important to you. You try to see the light side of all situations.
Character Strength #15
Teamwork
You excel as a member of a group. You are a loyal and dedicated teammate, you always do your share, and you work hard for the success of your group.
You excel as a member of a group. You are a loyal and dedicated teammate, you always do your share, and you work hard for the success of your group.
Character Strength #16
Gratitude
You are aware of the good things that happen to you, and you never take them for granted. Your friends and family members know that you are a grateful person because you always take the time to express your thanks.
You are aware of the good things that happen to you, and you never take them for granted. Your friends and family members know that you are a grateful person because you always take the time to express your thanks.
Character Strength #17
Perspective
Although you may not think of yourself as wise, your friends hold this view of you. They value your perspective on matters and turn to you for advice. You have a way of looking at the world that makes sense to others and to yourself.
Although you may not think of yourself as wise, your friends hold this view of you. They value your perspective on matters and turn to you for advice. You have a way of looking at the world that makes sense to others and to yourself.
Character Strength #18
Leadership
You excel at the tasks of leadership: encouraging a group to get things done and preserving harmony within the group by making everyone feel included. You do a good job organizing activities and seeing that they happen.
You excel at the tasks of leadership: encouraging a group to get things done and preserving harmony within the group by making everyone feel included. You do a good job organizing activities and seeing that they happen.
Character Strength #19
Spirituality
You have strong and coherent beliefs about the higher purpose and meaning of the universe. You know where you fit in the larger scheme. Your beliefs shape your actions and are a source of comfort to you.
You have strong and coherent beliefs about the higher purpose and meaning of the universe. You know where you fit in the larger scheme. Your beliefs shape your actions and are a source of comfort to you.
Character Strength #20
Zest
Regardless of what you do, you approach it with excitement and energy. You never do anything halfway or halfheartedly. For you, life is an adventure.
Regardless of what you do, you approach it with excitement and energy. You never do anything halfway or halfheartedly. For you, life is an adventure.
Character Strength #21
Social intelligence
You are aware of the motives and feelings of other people. You know what to do to fit in to different social situations, and you know what to do to put others at ease.
You are aware of the motives and feelings of other people. You know what to do to fit in to different social situations, and you know what to do to put others at ease.
Character Strength #22
Self-Regulation
You self-consciously regulate what you feel and what you do. You are a disciplined person. You are in control of your appetites and your emotions, not vice versa.
You self-consciously regulate what you feel and what you do. You are a disciplined person. You are in control of your appetites and your emotions, not vice versa.
Character Strength #23
Hope
You expect the best in the future, and you work to achieve it. You believe that the future is something that you can control.
You expect the best in the future, and you work to achieve it. You believe that the future is something that you can control.
Character Strength #24
Perseverance
You work hard to finish what you start. No matter the project, you "get it out the door" in timely fashion. You do not get distracted when you work, and you take satisfaction in completing tasks.
You work hard to finish what you start. No matter the project, you "get it out the door" in timely fashion. You do not get distracted when you work, and you take satisfaction in completing tasks.
Friday, 30 March 2012
這樣EMOTIONAL 其實也是熱血青春的一種
如今, 可以愈發冷靜理智成熟了
自動化投入下一步[搵一份傳媒相關的全職工作]之前看清楚OPTIONS以及自己的意願。
不知道是不是東方國家教育和文化的關係,。剛開始發展的個性又磨蝕。妥協,為了不令自己過於痛苦,自我麻醉。麻醉藥效過後,可能手上多了什麼大學畢業名銜,面目已被削成一片模糊了。要掘曾經冒出所謂理想就更加困難,什至連興趣也漸窄,由實在的行動,到被動電影書本,到只剩下吃和睡。
見步行步
因為決定錯誤,兩三年下來的掙扎和自責已經把自己弄得疲倦不堪。
思考思不出
拒絕做這個社會上的一粒齒輪。但有什麼ESCAPE呢?逃得了香港,地方,還不是社會。
出家。或者投入事。前者怕悶。我憝我都係需要錢。錢?無本投資做生意,是否一定要入公司?
有預感,仆好多好多條街,為過去的。延遲好多次。明明長大的機會,我都繞過了。人家去做實習,我也實習,坐在政府辦公室裡等放工,這算是什麼歷練!?然後因為我的意志薄弱,精神上的疲倦,負了太多太多人和事。我不知道是否所有野都要還。如果係的話,可能未來十年都會過得辛苦?
好多野要學。而話頭醒尾是有限的,許許多多走過人生路的人都告訴我們挫折是不可避免的。經歷嘗試經歷失敗。
好驚,好撚驚,人人都可以講一句"去他的!收入來DEFINE我的價值?!"但作為一個真係唔知自己值幾多錢的人,說著這話還是會心虛--成句野同"吃不到的葡萄是酸的"有咩分別?。
咩都唔做順風順水得太久了。悶死左。經歷過青春的EMOTIONAL。好驚好驚好驚外貌會老,不太相信年紀=智慧的。但成熟,即冷靜不被情緒牽住,即知道自己有咩可以做,即有承擔。我期待真正成為一個知道自己做緊咩的自己。一個做到D野的自己。唔會思前想後諗太多,知道行動勝過思想,但同時死命保衛獨立思考的自己。GOOD LUCK.
Sunday, 29 January 2012
Monday, 23 January 2012
Thursday, 19 January 2012
剛才做的選擇:在曼谷留幾耐先去出家?
想留因為實會好興奮
唔想留因為同樣怕有太正的偶遇
一定會打亂我的安排同我個心!然後出家實會變得好Q 悶個心會好痕......
會以為城市的興奮醫好左我, 而忘了上山的意義
揀左留3 日
都係玩左先, 先係無憾的選擇, 對嗎?
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繼續睇下有咩可能性(我三年前到底係咪盲左)
緬甸
Monday, 16 January 2012
Sunday, 15 January 2012
at the end of the day... I feel ashamed for myself.
There is something worse than not making money.
I am selling my life for all these stupid holiday consumerism - at a ridiculous price. I AM humiliating myself.
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好憎香港 - 但係又好鍾意好多只有香港搵到既野 - 但呢D 野都正在淡出了 - 所以都係好憎香港
Saturday, 7 January 2012
Thursday, 5 January 2012
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
- 清晰得不得了但又輸左俾墮性
- 再這樣坐下去,你會一天比一天怕人、不善社交;貧窮,花盡兩老的錢,愈來愈對自己失望,競爭力減弱。
- 好像每天都想自身跟社會的關係。說到底,是懷疑世上有沒有合適自己的工作。好揀擇。NONONONONONO
- 時間貨幣可以換來一切! COME ON!!!
- 認真D! 咪諗諗下就去左形而上又到處漂浮!
可行人生方案:
Graphic design freelances + 散工
重點係要KEEP 住做, (Starting from Jan 5th 11:30 - 15:30! Be your own Boss! 夠鐘先睇天與地!)
要間中進修下, 電腦同設計方面的知識
Monday, 2 January 2012
想完整,想獨立,想自由。
曬相
新挑戰:訓練表達能力,每日寫一篇文章! WOW!!
new challenge: to build up my communication skills, i will write an article each day starting from now! wow!
不如這樣:
Target of 2012 -- Stay away from LAZINESS!!
Sunday, 1 January 2012
http://www.stevepavlina.com/forums/character-contribution/63206-blech-finding-your-life-purpose-20-mins.html
There are similar exercises where you write down what you want and then ask Why? or What will that give you? and carry on until you get a realisation moment.
EEEE!! 可能因為我存在主義?! 所以係無本質!?!
My suggestion to you is to try remembering all the times that you've cried in the past
What is my life purpose?
Joy, experience, love, travel, exploring
Joy, experience, love, travel, exploring
待睇
五年, 傷心
AU PAIR
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