Very Important

1. Passivity hurts you too much. As a existentialist, or whatever you name your philosophy, you know that the only way won't make you regret is to CHOOSE, PROACTIVELY.
   Try to avoid letting people make decisions for you.
   
2. 憤怒是非常重要的東西，它通常是熱情的前身， 在它蛻變之前，所有的熱情都來自於一股好奇和憤怒。 所以請珍惜你的憤怒，去問問題，也去找答案。 我認為這不但是你們人生最大的收穫， 這也會幫助我們停止不斷去問「到底我們能怎麼做」， 而是「我現在能怎麼做」、或是「任何一件小事情我就去做」。 憤怒其實是非常非常重要的力量。 A great note from Zhang Xuan to an Enneagram No.9.
   Keep an eye on your every single emotion which will be your important guiding light.
   
3. YOU MUST TRUST YOUR OWN JUDGEMENT. Otherwise it must be the beginning of another tragedy. Like that pain you experienced in the past 3 years... Write down your observation even when you can't google similar voices.
   
4. TEARS are come out of TRUTH. Not insanity. They are much much more honest than your mind.
   
5. RESPECT YOURSELF. You deserve it. Your ability deserves to be recognized. You deserve to be loved by someone you love someday. You deserve to be surrounded by nice and intelligent and thoughtful people. You deserve to live the way you like.

all-time favorite

I just dreamt of you this morning, my all-time favorite S
Nothing's have been happier than you holding my hands
Even though I think the past 3 years is a waste of time, you are still the best gem I found
I didnt know I would grow up this quickly and forgot everything I used to pursue
No my boyfriend does not know a thing I like, not cinema, not 1960s, not Hong Kong, not politics
nothing fun
I wonder would we still find a way back to each other
before you found the girl you love
before I flow with my destiny
It's been a year since the days in SunGing and JinYan. I know I still miss you. very much.

not good

愉快的日子幾乎想都沒想過文字。Live right in the moment，笑笑鬧鬧，跟他在一起以前的日子看起來已很遙遠，也沒有怎麼想過未來。心裡會浮現的字句，就是Enjoy the moment, full stop. Nothing else.

最值得用文字记起来的片刻，还是没有记下。
人生头一次这样被宠爱，头一次有人把所有时间用来奉陪我，头一次觉得有人没暗地看不起我，头一次有人关心我生活里每一个细节，头一次有人跟我相处了整天整夜到第二天中午还是准时来电。我也从不那么有自信，想什么时候拥抱一个人都有人抱回来；想到黄色笑话可以马上告诉人；午夜感到不开心可以在怀抱里尽情地哭，还有人把你当小孩耐心地哄。

这一切我都充满感激。

我不知道要怎么报答。我不知道怎么办。拿了他那么多，总觉得自己要么是骗子，要么是出卖自己。男朋友？我从来不能光明正大的向别人介绍这个人。

尤其是当我知道这一切一定会有结束的一天。

星期六晚上，我看了他好久好久，还是吐出了那一句话。

我对你一直都没什么感觉。

多么锋利的十一个字。

我恐怕永远都收不回来了。

从来没见过你那般惊呆。

正仆街。

只有sorry，关于那句话的道歉后悔，一点都说不出来。我知道我不停流眼泪不只是因为亲自伤害了深爱我的你，也是因为我知道我说的是从来都在逃避的真话。

然后一切变了。相处脱离了“对“的感觉。我不知所措。