indelible 不可磨滅
inept 無能
leper 麻風病人
tipsy 喝醉的
gallant 英勇
peace of mind 安心
binge 狂歡
boor 莽漢
attain 達到
devastated 蹂躪
grubby 骯髒
deadbeat 飯桶(鬧人)
wallow 沉溺
torment 折磨
clinging to
mirages 海市蜃樓
musty 發霉的
elude 躲避
penetrating 透徹
obscure 晦澀
incapable of 無能
Saturday, 6 November 2010
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Thursday, 4 November 2010
20101104
- 到底自己做決定 定 唔做決定順其自然 才可避免後悔？
瓜我唔多信你...... 中伏太多次啦。 - 真的能說命運在我手嗎？你堅守存在主義？但你又信性格已決定命運。
- 還是不明白這是怎麼回事。無疑你們很優秀，我只喜歡跟你們待在一起，我渴望你們把我當作同類。可你說我是屬於這群精英的嗎，事實上我根本什麼都不知道，有時候我覺得我是個被利用的小白痴，看不出背後的前因後果。但又不相信你們是老謀深算的人。
- check 了又check那些數據，忽然覺得自己有點可憐。事實是你苦心經營，卻沒有人注意你。
- 還是未有勇氣邀請朋友來這網誌看赤裸的我。但當然心裡還是期望有像我這般無聊的人會找到來。
SFSU commencement address 2008
MAYOR GAVIN NEWSOM:
Thank you Bob. Congratulations, class of 2008. How are you feeling, San Francisco State?
It is good to be here and it's an honor to be asked to speak to you. Now, I did -- I did a little bit of research before I decided to accept this. I asked my staff, I said, "Tell me about your graduation speaker at college." They all are college graduates, by the way, and not one of them could remember who spoke at their graduation. So let me introduce myself to you as the guy you will soon forget that spoke at your graduation here at SF State.
It is my honor to be invited to share with you not a political speech, but to share with you just some thoughts and ideas that I have been jotting down in the last few days, some of the things I've picked up along the way. But I would be remiss not to pick up on what some of the previous speakers have said, particularly some of the passionate eloquence of Dr. White who sounded more like Reverend White when he spoke about our composite strength. And, I think, it is important to reflect on this.
Bob Corrigan, your president, reflected upon it in his opening remarks of this the 107th graduating class. He commented to me when we were walking up, he said, "I don't know if you know this Mayor, but there are 107 countries represented in this graduation, here today, which is extraordinary." And that deserves some consideration because for the rest of your lives you're going to be identified with San Francisco State University. You're going to be identified with a city that is among the most diverse cities in the most diverse region in the most diverse State in the world's most diverse democracy.
And people are living together, advancing together, and prospering together across every conceivable difference, that's the magic of our city, that's the magic of your university, that's the magic and spirit that unites us all here today. In addition -- and by the way I know you're thinking, "how long?" I got you. Don't worry. Not long.
I was thinking about, though, what makes -- beyond that composite strength -- the fact that we are celebrating all our interesting differences, but at the end of the day, we're uniting around our common humanity and things that unite us. I also was trying to think about what makes San Francisco such a unique and special place, why it's often been described as 47 square miles surrounded by reality.
Think about that.
A city of dreamers, a city of doers, a city of entrepreneurs, a city of innovators, a city that is always on the leading and cutting edge of new ideas. At its core, it's people who live their lives out loud.
And this is what I want to impart to you and challenge you to think about: it's passionate people that have found their purpose, the things that drive them. And the more I go around and the more I go through life, I am now starting to understand this distinction between committed people and interested people. And the difference therein lies my belief of the determinative nature of success: that committed people find ways of getting things done. Interested people find excuses. And where that commitment comes from is passion. Pursuing something you love.
When you graduate as you are in a moment, formally, what you do next should be in that pursuit. Do not take a job for what it pays you. Take a job because of how it inspires you and what you can learn from it. I have met so many people that are utterly disconnected with happiness because every single day they're waking up and they're going to work. And they don't particularly like their jobs because they haven't found their passion. If you don't like your job, you're not going to excel it at it, period. But if you find something you love, you'll find that connection, you'll find that commitment, and you'll find your bliss, and you'll find your connection to something much bigger.
And that's why I just want to challenge you to answer this question -- I have on my desk a little plaque that says, "what would you do, what would you do if you knew you could not fail?"
What would you try to achieve? Who would you try to become if you knew it was impossible to fail, what would you try to do? And if you can answer that question, and if you can live and manifest the answer to that question, then I believe you guys are well on your way.
Another key determinant of success in life is failure. And I want to focus on this. A lot has been written and discussed about the importance of failure, but I need to underscore this point because you have all been trained in a way that makes you less likely to fail as often as I would like you to.
And what I mean by failure is the willingness and ability to take risks, we are so risk-averse, specifically in the public sector. And the purpose for me of taking risks is that mistakes are portals of discovery. When you fail -- and I challenge you to fail forward fast -- when you fail, you're learning something new. It's remarkable to me, and this is interesting, that all the great discoveries in physics have been made by people 25 years and younger. And the reason why is they just don't know what they don't know. And as a consequence, they're willing to try new things. And so I challenge you as you move forward in life, do not become risk averse. I want you to do what Winston Churchill said when he answered the question, "what is the secret of all success?," Winston Churchill, he said it was moving from failure to failure with enthusiasm.
Think about it. If it's that easy… Wayne Gretsky commented, "You miss a hundred percent of the shots you don't take." The point is, if you think those two did all right, consider some of their colleagues who somewhat shared similar fates. Guys like Elvis Presley and Michael Jordan, Dr. Seuss, Henry Ford -- if you don't know him you probably drive one of his automobiles -- all of them had failure in common. Jordan was literally rejected from his high school basketball team. Michael Jordan wasn't good enough. That guy Churchill finished last in his class, whoever you are, congratulations… there are a number of you, I see.
Henry Ford went bankrupt not once, not twice -- three, four, five times went bankrupt. Dr. Seuss tried to publish that darn green eggs and whatever ham, not once -- five, ten, fifteen, twenty, twenty-three times he was rejected. Until a publisher finally said, "all right, what the heck do I have to lose?" And Elvis Presley got an F in music.
My point, I think, has been made.
I want you in that context -- and I heard it a moment ago, and it's just so right on -- to also preserve a sense of being different. Learn from but don't follow others. We get so consumed by how someone else is doing in terms of defining our own success in life. I kind of love what the late, great Jerry Garcia said, Grateful Dead, I know you, some of you still know who the Grateful Dead are. And I love the idea that a politician could quote Jerry Garcia. Only in San Francisco. But he said, "you do not want to be the best of the best." Let me repeat that, this is what he said, he said, "you do not want to be the best of the best. You want to be the only one that does what you do."
Think about that. And by the way, that described the Grateful Dead, didn't it? It describes them day. Everyone has a unique, latent talent. Everyone's expression is unique, celebrate that. Don't try to become someone else and something inherently you are not. That's the opportunity. Live your life out loud for you to find the ability to be fully expressive, and that is the opportunity of originality. That's what each and every one of you inherently possess.
Another point, we heard it a moment ago, as well. And that is lifelong learning. This is important. I keep reminding my staff when they come in and lecture me is that they need to first seek to understand, then to be understood. A lesson my mother taught me. This was codified so many times over in so many books that I've read, but probably best by the greatest basketball coach in history. The greatest coach in history who said, it's what you learn after you know it all that counts. That was John Wooden. Think about that. It's important.
Learning doesn't end here today. It's the beginning of a process. If you're green, you are growing, if you are ripe, you are rotting. Be green.
Also, learn to listen. And I know many of you are not. But listening is the only way to find out what you are missing. There is a great story, I just read this in a book about president Teddy Roosevelt who was an admirer of listeners and practiced it himself. And he was at this big, fancy gala out at the White House. It's a true story. And everyone came up all these silent pleasantries, nice to meet you Mr. President, keep up the good work. And the President would say a few words, thank you that's great. He recalled no one was paying a damn bit of attention to him. So he said the following to everyone he met, with a big smile on his face at this big, fancy gala with all these fancy people. He said with a smile when he shook their hand, he said "I killed my grandmother this morning." True story, he said that. And everyone went by and everyone said, "that's wonderful, Mr. President, nice to meet you." He kept repeating it until one very seasoned diplomat leaned over and whispered into his ear -- into the president's ear and said, "Well, Mr. President, I'm sure she had it coming." Learn to listen.
We heard from Manny [Mashouf] about the importance of generosity. This is also important because I'll tell you the three people that were honored today -- Walter, Isabel and Manny -- were honored for one reason. Not because of the things they have received but because of things they have given. This is important in life. Because we kind of sometimes forget that. It's the old lesson of the candle. It doesn't lose at all it's brightness by lighting another candle.
There's a story I heard a couple years ago, and bear with me very briefly, about the Special Olympics, This friend of mine, Michael Pritchard, told this story about the Special Olympics. They're all lined up, and there was a very large woman, taller than the rest, bigger, stronger, named Judy. Judy starts running around the track. She's well ahead of everybody else. And people are enthusiastically cheering her on, saying keep going, Judy, keep going. She gets about fifteen yards from the finish line, and people say, come on Judy, the gold medal, the gold medal. she slows down and stops, she's shaking her head. Come on Judy, fifteen yards, fifteen yards, you've got it. She keeps shaking her head. Until she turns around and waits for every single person – this is a true story -- to come right up and she puts out her arms and wraps around every single shoulder and they all walk across the finish line together. That's generosity. That's the spirit of generosity. That's what it's all about, guys, and I hope you think about that.
Two final points. Forget pursuit of power. Forget the pursuit of power. I'm talking Gandhi, King, Vaclav Havel, Nelson Mandela, I could go on. But I challenge you to think with me, think about Gandhi in 1935, Dr. King, 1959, Havel, '85, how about Mandela in 1988. What did they all have in common? Jail time. None of them had formal authority. Theirs was the pursuit of purpose, not power. They had moral authority.
You do not need a title to have moral authority, you do not need a title to change the world. There's just simply enough evidence to prove that point. Think about those four leaders the next time you are desperate for that job that you must have to finally be someone. Do not forget. It's not about being someone, it's about doing something. Not about being some governor or president so that you can finally do something. You have moral authority. Use it.
I'll close by saying this, as well, that one thing about success I've also learned is it's not a place and it's not a definition. It's a direction. There is no having made it. I'd like to tell you that there was. So I just want to make you think a little bit about an old line that it's important to happily achieve, not achieve to be happy. I know that you've achieved something great today, but I hope you've enjoyed the process. And I hope whatever new goals and sights you is set for yourself remember that, this is it, tomorrow, the next day, this is it. So, the point is calm down, reflect upon it, and enjoy it and know that there are no experts. I am learning this, and if you didn't believe me, just think about weapons of mass destruction. There are no experts. We're all winging it. So relax. Don't take it or yourselves too seriously. Final words, how long? Not long.
I've always believed that the best way to predict the future is simply to go out and create it. And a lot of people talk about the future being in front of us, but at the end of the day, don't ever forget it -- this is the spirit of what Walter talked about a moment ago -- the future is not just in front of you, it's inside of you. You've got to have the courage to manifest it. To take the risks. To live your lives out loud. To be driven by passion and purpose. Remember purpose is what it's all about, not power. Live your life out loud, be fully expressive, recognize your fate is connected to every single person next to you, in front of you and around you and relax and enjoy and -- and regale in this great day in your accomplishments as graduates 2008 at San Francisco State. Thank you all, and have a great afternoon.
Thank you Bob. Congratulations, class of 2008. How are you feeling, San Francisco State?
It is good to be here and it's an honor to be asked to speak to you. Now, I did -- I did a little bit of research before I decided to accept this. I asked my staff, I said, "Tell me about your graduation speaker at college." They all are college graduates, by the way, and not one of them could remember who spoke at their graduation. So let me introduce myself to you as the guy you will soon forget that spoke at your graduation here at SF State.
It is my honor to be invited to share with you not a political speech, but to share with you just some thoughts and ideas that I have been jotting down in the last few days, some of the things I've picked up along the way. But I would be remiss not to pick up on what some of the previous speakers have said, particularly some of the passionate eloquence of Dr. White who sounded more like Reverend White when he spoke about our composite strength. And, I think, it is important to reflect on this.
Bob Corrigan, your president, reflected upon it in his opening remarks of this the 107th graduating class. He commented to me when we were walking up, he said, "I don't know if you know this Mayor, but there are 107 countries represented in this graduation, here today, which is extraordinary." And that deserves some consideration because for the rest of your lives you're going to be identified with San Francisco State University. You're going to be identified with a city that is among the most diverse cities in the most diverse region in the most diverse State in the world's most diverse democracy.
And people are living together, advancing together, and prospering together across every conceivable difference, that's the magic of our city, that's the magic of your university, that's the magic and spirit that unites us all here today. In addition -- and by the way I know you're thinking, "how long?" I got you. Don't worry. Not long.
I was thinking about, though, what makes -- beyond that composite strength -- the fact that we are celebrating all our interesting differences, but at the end of the day, we're uniting around our common humanity and things that unite us. I also was trying to think about what makes San Francisco such a unique and special place, why it's often been described as 47 square miles surrounded by reality.
Think about that.
A city of dreamers, a city of doers, a city of entrepreneurs, a city of innovators, a city that is always on the leading and cutting edge of new ideas. At its core, it's people who live their lives out loud.
And this is what I want to impart to you and challenge you to think about: it's passionate people that have found their purpose, the things that drive them. And the more I go around and the more I go through life, I am now starting to understand this distinction between committed people and interested people. And the difference therein lies my belief of the determinative nature of success: that committed people find ways of getting things done. Interested people find excuses. And where that commitment comes from is passion. Pursuing something you love.
When you graduate as you are in a moment, formally, what you do next should be in that pursuit. Do not take a job for what it pays you. Take a job because of how it inspires you and what you can learn from it. I have met so many people that are utterly disconnected with happiness because every single day they're waking up and they're going to work. And they don't particularly like their jobs because they haven't found their passion. If you don't like your job, you're not going to excel it at it, period. But if you find something you love, you'll find that connection, you'll find that commitment, and you'll find your bliss, and you'll find your connection to something much bigger.
And that's why I just want to challenge you to answer this question -- I have on my desk a little plaque that says, "what would you do, what would you do if you knew you could not fail?"
What would you try to achieve? Who would you try to become if you knew it was impossible to fail, what would you try to do? And if you can answer that question, and if you can live and manifest the answer to that question, then I believe you guys are well on your way.
Another key determinant of success in life is failure. And I want to focus on this. A lot has been written and discussed about the importance of failure, but I need to underscore this point because you have all been trained in a way that makes you less likely to fail as often as I would like you to.
And what I mean by failure is the willingness and ability to take risks, we are so risk-averse, specifically in the public sector. And the purpose for me of taking risks is that mistakes are portals of discovery. When you fail -- and I challenge you to fail forward fast -- when you fail, you're learning something new. It's remarkable to me, and this is interesting, that all the great discoveries in physics have been made by people 25 years and younger. And the reason why is they just don't know what they don't know. And as a consequence, they're willing to try new things. And so I challenge you as you move forward in life, do not become risk averse. I want you to do what Winston Churchill said when he answered the question, "what is the secret of all success?," Winston Churchill, he said it was moving from failure to failure with enthusiasm.
Think about it. If it's that easy… Wayne Gretsky commented, "You miss a hundred percent of the shots you don't take." The point is, if you think those two did all right, consider some of their colleagues who somewhat shared similar fates. Guys like Elvis Presley and Michael Jordan, Dr. Seuss, Henry Ford -- if you don't know him you probably drive one of his automobiles -- all of them had failure in common. Jordan was literally rejected from his high school basketball team. Michael Jordan wasn't good enough. That guy Churchill finished last in his class, whoever you are, congratulations… there are a number of you, I see.
Henry Ford went bankrupt not once, not twice -- three, four, five times went bankrupt. Dr. Seuss tried to publish that darn green eggs and whatever ham, not once -- five, ten, fifteen, twenty, twenty-three times he was rejected. Until a publisher finally said, "all right, what the heck do I have to lose?" And Elvis Presley got an F in music.
My point, I think, has been made.
I want you in that context -- and I heard it a moment ago, and it's just so right on -- to also preserve a sense of being different. Learn from but don't follow others. We get so consumed by how someone else is doing in terms of defining our own success in life. I kind of love what the late, great Jerry Garcia said, Grateful Dead, I know you, some of you still know who the Grateful Dead are. And I love the idea that a politician could quote Jerry Garcia. Only in San Francisco. But he said, "you do not want to be the best of the best." Let me repeat that, this is what he said, he said, "you do not want to be the best of the best. You want to be the only one that does what you do."
Think about that. And by the way, that described the Grateful Dead, didn't it? It describes them day. Everyone has a unique, latent talent. Everyone's expression is unique, celebrate that. Don't try to become someone else and something inherently you are not. That's the opportunity. Live your life out loud for you to find the ability to be fully expressive, and that is the opportunity of originality. That's what each and every one of you inherently possess.
Another point, we heard it a moment ago, as well. And that is lifelong learning. This is important. I keep reminding my staff when they come in and lecture me is that they need to first seek to understand, then to be understood. A lesson my mother taught me. This was codified so many times over in so many books that I've read, but probably best by the greatest basketball coach in history. The greatest coach in history who said, it's what you learn after you know it all that counts. That was John Wooden. Think about that. It's important.
Learning doesn't end here today. It's the beginning of a process. If you're green, you are growing, if you are ripe, you are rotting. Be green.
Also, learn to listen. And I know many of you are not. But listening is the only way to find out what you are missing. There is a great story, I just read this in a book about president Teddy Roosevelt who was an admirer of listeners and practiced it himself. And he was at this big, fancy gala out at the White House. It's a true story. And everyone came up all these silent pleasantries, nice to meet you Mr. President, keep up the good work. And the President would say a few words, thank you that's great. He recalled no one was paying a damn bit of attention to him. So he said the following to everyone he met, with a big smile on his face at this big, fancy gala with all these fancy people. He said with a smile when he shook their hand, he said "I killed my grandmother this morning." True story, he said that. And everyone went by and everyone said, "that's wonderful, Mr. President, nice to meet you." He kept repeating it until one very seasoned diplomat leaned over and whispered into his ear -- into the president's ear and said, "Well, Mr. President, I'm sure she had it coming." Learn to listen.
We heard from Manny [Mashouf] about the importance of generosity. This is also important because I'll tell you the three people that were honored today -- Walter, Isabel and Manny -- were honored for one reason. Not because of the things they have received but because of things they have given. This is important in life. Because we kind of sometimes forget that. It's the old lesson of the candle. It doesn't lose at all it's brightness by lighting another candle.
There's a story I heard a couple years ago, and bear with me very briefly, about the Special Olympics, This friend of mine, Michael Pritchard, told this story about the Special Olympics. They're all lined up, and there was a very large woman, taller than the rest, bigger, stronger, named Judy. Judy starts running around the track. She's well ahead of everybody else. And people are enthusiastically cheering her on, saying keep going, Judy, keep going. She gets about fifteen yards from the finish line, and people say, come on Judy, the gold medal, the gold medal. she slows down and stops, she's shaking her head. Come on Judy, fifteen yards, fifteen yards, you've got it. She keeps shaking her head. Until she turns around and waits for every single person – this is a true story -- to come right up and she puts out her arms and wraps around every single shoulder and they all walk across the finish line together. That's generosity. That's the spirit of generosity. That's what it's all about, guys, and I hope you think about that.
Two final points. Forget pursuit of power. Forget the pursuit of power. I'm talking Gandhi, King, Vaclav Havel, Nelson Mandela, I could go on. But I challenge you to think with me, think about Gandhi in 1935, Dr. King, 1959, Havel, '85, how about Mandela in 1988. What did they all have in common? Jail time. None of them had formal authority. Theirs was the pursuit of purpose, not power. They had moral authority.
You do not need a title to have moral authority, you do not need a title to change the world. There's just simply enough evidence to prove that point. Think about those four leaders the next time you are desperate for that job that you must have to finally be someone. Do not forget. It's not about being someone, it's about doing something. Not about being some governor or president so that you can finally do something. You have moral authority. Use it.
I'll close by saying this, as well, that one thing about success I've also learned is it's not a place and it's not a definition. It's a direction. There is no having made it. I'd like to tell you that there was. So I just want to make you think a little bit about an old line that it's important to happily achieve, not achieve to be happy. I know that you've achieved something great today, but I hope you've enjoyed the process. And I hope whatever new goals and sights you is set for yourself remember that, this is it, tomorrow, the next day, this is it. So, the point is calm down, reflect upon it, and enjoy it and know that there are no experts. I am learning this, and if you didn't believe me, just think about weapons of mass destruction. There are no experts. We're all winging it. So relax. Don't take it or yourselves too seriously. Final words, how long? Not long.
I've always believed that the best way to predict the future is simply to go out and create it. And a lot of people talk about the future being in front of us, but at the end of the day, don't ever forget it -- this is the spirit of what Walter talked about a moment ago -- the future is not just in front of you, it's inside of you. You've got to have the courage to manifest it. To take the risks. To live your lives out loud. To be driven by passion and purpose. Remember purpose is what it's all about, not power. Live your life out loud, be fully expressive, recognize your fate is connected to every single person next to you, in front of you and around you and relax and enjoy and -- and regale in this great day in your accomplishments as graduates 2008 at San Francisco State. Thank you all, and have a great afternoon.
hokyingmun 101104
pursuit 追求
latent 潛在
manifest 表現
seasoned 經驗豐富的
excel 擅長
eloquence 口才
ripe 成熟
portal 正門
happy-go-lucky 無憂無慮
sabotaging 破壞
latent 潛在
manifest 表現
seasoned 經驗豐富的
excel 擅長
eloquence 口才
ripe 成熟
portal 正門
happy-go-lucky 無憂無慮
sabotaging 破壞
Wednesday, 3 November 2010
fxxking cinematography class
- "Jordan was literally rejected from his high school basketball team. Michael Jordan wasn’t good enough. That guy Churchill finished last in his class. ... Henry Ford went bankrupt not once, not twice — three, four, five times went bankrupt. Dr. Seuss tried to publish that darn green eggs and whatever ham, not once — five, ten, fifteen, twenty, twenty-three times he was rejected. Until a publisher finally said, 'All right, what the heck do I have to lose?' And Elvis Presley got an F in music."
不肯定這些人物有什麼失敗的，反而相信他們一直做得不錯，只是遇上有權勢而目中無人的白痴。
今天我們的作品被批評得一文不值體無完膚，我會當是一種潛能的讚賞。（喂好老土好懶樂觀呀，瓜！）
在同學面前我未算太激動，其實我只是沒說，條仆街每講一句時我心中都在呼喊「屌你」，直到回程時心臟也跳動得很不舒服。
他們在面書罵得興高采烈，我沒參與，一來愈提會愈不愉快；二來也許是我反抗能力較低，已轉向自省，自知條仆街批評得有點道理便不再說了。
points:
day & night shooting
color temperature
lights
其餘的都是為針對而亂說的廢話。
條仆街沒講我們其的camera works，但我們自知做得不錯，就好。
最緊要對得住自己嘛。 - 強烈地想拍嘢。玩打燈，強烈光暗對比，玩超誇張角度。電影攝影課的練習還不夠，我好想從頭到尾親手拍攝，獨自完成一套影片。瓜！佐治給你如此黃金機會，你這次不要再吹水啦！
- 隱隱感到稍為稔熟的同學們開始不喜歡我，感覺是如此差勁...... 不論你選擇繼續扮nice與否，我在你面前都一樣難受。
而他們根本不會輕易改觀。
Tuesday, 2 November 2010
HAPPY TODAY
- 《告白》該是這年最投入的觀影經驗了。節奏處理得非常準確；即使全片幾乎都由獨白帶出，仍有大量豐富的畫面作平衡。羅生門的處理，劇情瘋狂卻受控，不至於可笑不合理。最欣賞少用血腥，改而描繪人物心理，一樣令人心寒。
- 「又話唔做怕醜仔？」「係囉！」
Jengua 你已在 facebook status 公開宣誓了！ - 在209 與Crystal +各位重溫......
其實朋友在你面前播他認為好好聽（而你卻不認同）的歌實在是難受的事... 再口直心快也難以開口說「好難聽，唔好迫我聽啦！」
可換了是自己，還是忍不住放！ - WOW... JACKPOT!!!!!!
- 我有點相信吸引力法則！但又沒作什麼大膽嘗試呀！哎呀，我感到幸運之神在說：你個淆底獸破壞信用了...... 上天請再賜我機會 pleaseeee... PLEASE... PLEEEEAAASSSEEEE!!!!!!
之後，命運便在我手！！ - 然後今晚好愉快好愉快，跟幾個中同吃晚飯，那些對答笑死我，
錢：「李ｘ鋒你收埋左邊個喺你個袋度？」
爺：「周秀娜！」
李：「邊裝得落人呀？！」
爺：「攬枕！周秀娜攬枕！」
錢：「你唔戴眼鏡當堂順眼左喎！」
李：「我唔戴眼鏡望你都順眼左！」
錢說這些很warm。我也挺嚮往這種友誼。
望穿秋水，終於有一次談至深夜時分。很感激有這麼一個同伴，快十年了。
Sunday, 31 October 2010
Saturday, 30 October 2010
20101029
- 有你在，我是那麼的高興，你是那麼的重要。可是我真白痴啊。
一起高桌這難得的機會，給我無端端浪費了......
i like you. - 需要一個傾訴對象的感覺愈發強烈了。想念曾經一起Ｘ燭夜談的朋友...... 如今都不在。
- 其實 點解你做人要做到咁呢，Jen
其實 你有好多野想做想講，對不對
就要爆的感覺又來襲。你裡面明明有些感受，而且是強烈的。樣樣衰衰都好，爆啦頂你！ - 而且發覺，我並不是要埋怨。
- 讀完《茶花女》。
Friday, 29 October 2010
20101028
- 如果循規蹈矩還有機會混得好，而自己爭取則一定沒好結果
- 知道不會尷尬才講真心話，這是定律......
but yeah. i expressed myself today and i feel not bad - 很怕人很怕人很怕人很怕人
- 怕被看到眼睛，神情不得不閃縮，是不是因為怕被發現沒有所謂靈魂？
- 每時每分背著罪惡感做人真的很累很不愉快
又不是殺了人
我會說（賴）這種包袱來自基督教的教育
從小植根
教養孩童，使他走當行的道，就是到老他也不偏離。（箴二二：6）
Wednesday, 27 October 2010
20101026
- 人家走堂去逛街也特地為我買外賣，我連上課給她拿筆記也忘了。遲鈍的瓜。無心裝載的瓜。
- 覺得自己說話態度很不好。自自然然就歪眼歪咀了。再害羞也有必要改。:(
- "Grief is idiotic. I'd choose nothingness. It's not any better, but grief is a compromise. You've got to have all or nothing." -Breathless
Tuesday, 26 October 2010
20101025
- 你既然知道這裡的人目光較窄, 就不要用同樣窄的目光去看事物和批判自己。
- What about a second B.A. degree in the U.S.? as you remember the American dream, everything is still possible no matter who you are now.
- 趁無人大聲講：這群人好自戀，為何要無關人士聽你們一次又一次dem beat？拍造型照、到處張貼派發自己的肖像又是為了什麼？許多香港的大學生對「大學生生活」定義就只有這種。
- 錯誤中學習：先留意要為你的選擇付出多少時間（和其他），謹慎留意你的選擇的內容，聽取局內人的描述，再決定！（當然，if info available...）
因為今次，我真係experimental 唔起...... - 嬲/怕在這裡生活的自己一日比一日呆板；去年還有許多許多創作欲，現在我做什麼都沒勁了。仆街
hokyingmun 101025
thrive 蓬勃發展
ubiquity 無所不在
complacency 自滿
but the pendulum 鐘擺 has now swung back
proliferation 激增
decked out in 裝飾上
ticky-tacky (esp. of a building or housing development) Made of inferior material; cheap or in poor taste
affront 侮辱
twirl 旋轉
ambience 環境；氣氛；格調
take solace from 安慰
emblem 標誌
whinge 抱怨
sleazy 不正派的, dirty
haute 高檔
notorious 臭名昭著的
giddy 眼花花/ 眩目
extravagant 鋪張浪費的
flâneur 漫遊者
pawn shop 當鋪
periphery 周邊
ubiquity 無所不在
complacency 自滿
but the pendulum 鐘擺 has now swung back
proliferation 激增
decked out in 裝飾上
ticky-tacky (esp. of a building or housing development) Made of inferior material; cheap or in poor taste
affront 侮辱
twirl 旋轉
ambience 環境；氣氛；格調
take solace from 安慰
emblem 標誌
whinge 抱怨
sleazy 不正派的, dirty
haute 高檔
notorious 臭名昭著的
giddy 眼花花/ 眩目
extravagant 鋪張浪費的
flâneur 漫遊者
pawn shop 當鋪
periphery 周邊
Monday, 25 October 2010
Sunday, 24 October 2010
當生活每天都在提醒你
當生活每天都在提醒你，你做錯了決定
當生活每天都在提醒你，你不屬於這個地方、這個地方不屬於你
當生活每天都在提醒你，你這樣的性格難以生存
當生活每天都在提醒你，你不配擁有這個身分
－
嗯，每天都在後悔。用年青的最後三年去體驗這些，我根本付擔不起。
我對這樣的嘻鬧起初是好奇，然而很快就變成反感。怎麼這些人都以沒有個性為傲。
當生活每天都在提醒你，你不屬於這個地方、這個地方不屬於你
當生活每天都在提醒你，你這樣的性格難以生存
當生活每天都在提醒你，你不配擁有這個身分
－
嗯，每天都在後悔。用年青的最後三年去體驗這些，我根本付擔不起。
我對這樣的嘻鬧起初是好奇，然而很快就變成反感。怎麼這些人都以沒有個性為傲。
Saturday, 23 October 2010
Friday, 22 October 2010
20101022
- 好多正嘢有排睇：http://www.flickr.com/photos/old-hk
不得不慨嘆城市發展得太快，這裡還剩什麼可愛之處呢。在那個時空，連廣告牌和樓宇都特別好看。 - 跟其他同學一樣，crit comm 一科已改變我們每日的思想模式，能看到往日看不到的，感覺太好。從每個文本中發現小小的字符表達的許多東西，發現各人根深柢固的意識形態。難得真正覺得自己在接受教育。但要重拾獨立思考能力，似乎還有一段距離。
- watched: The World of Suzie Wong
:) 舊片 x 舊香港。那時代的香港人仍身穿長衫旗袍，有人耕田、有人捕漁，到處都是三四層高的唐樓，巴士都是胖嘟嘟的，多可愛的地方，多教人嚮往！ - 廣告業真是我的理想嗎？最近思考這問題，問倒良心了。我要每天想辦法哄人買自己不需要的垃圾嗎？我要可憐的人們繼續拜商品、為商品而活嗎？相比新聞，這行業似乎不怎麼正義......
- 也許是無聊了寂寞了；也也許...... 不，是其實，有個人一直在我心裡。緣分很短暫，片段一點都不深刻，為何我又會縈念至現在呢。竟有點衝動親自重建，所謂的，緣份。那時還在學鼓，現在你已有自己的band show，你不會知道，遠方有這麼一個人很想看哩。
- 好想脫離每一個毒品，必須握緊自控能力。我不要我的時間生活被支配。
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
還是這樣
我是傻仔。
你早成為我世界的軸心。
不論你知道不知道、喜歡不喜歡，
所有事物都圍繞著你。
嗯... 其實你和他們都感覺到卻假裝不知道吧！
In fact this picture is dedicated to someone
and in fact this picture is titled "whenever i see you"
and i was happy as heck
you saw it.
今天你又找我了
分析不到說話的重點
你幾時先會ask me out 呢
你早成為我世界的軸心。
不論你知道不知道、喜歡不喜歡，
所有事物都圍繞著你。
嗯... 其實你和他們都感覺到卻假裝不知道吧！
In fact this picture is dedicated to someone
and in fact this picture is titled "whenever i see you"
and i was happy as heck
you saw it.
今天你又找我了
分析不到說話的重點
你幾時先會ask me out 呢
Sunday, 17 October 2010
20101018
一星期前的Jengua，我已經好想念你了。
我想念你輕省的心境，在這樣的異鄉才是最自在。
那天你好像想通了許多。可惜你沒留下半點文字吖。
－ － －
Dear G
剛才開玩笑說我只有你一個熟人，i dont know if i mean it... 是真的也說不定。
你這人實在好神奇，什麼都曉，對於戴哪副臉總是控制自如，往往一眼便看穿我，而且居然有如此耐性。
張佬無左你點算。我無左你點算。對你有太多太多感激了。
P.S. 謝謝你仍然嘗試將我訓練成正常人。
Jengua
Saturday, 16 October 2010
Friday, 8 October 2010
Wednesday, 6 October 2010
......
派題，一次比一次唔開心
我覺得隨便否決人地，迫人做自己鍾意既題都幾自私
下次下次下次次次都話下次我無下次喇頂你
我唔想做一個自己以前過唔到題，有權力時就強加同一題俾下一個記者既編輯
同埋...... 點解我地咁似而你運氣總係好過我。如果我係你就好喇，我無辦法唔咁樣諗
我覺得隨便否決人地，迫人做自己鍾意既題都幾自私
下次下次下次次次都話下次我無下次喇頂你
我唔想做一個自己以前過唔到題，有權力時就強加同一題俾下一個記者既編輯
同埋...... 點解我地咁似而你運氣總係好過我。如果我係你就好喇，我無辦法唔咁樣諗
Monday, 4 October 2010
記住25條了，你就成熟了
1、 遇到不想回答的問題 ：直視對方的眼睛 ，微笑、 沈默 。
2 、走路抬頭挺胸，心情不好時，不想跟人招呼，點頭微笑，逕直走過 。
3 、請記得 ：好朋友的定義是，你混的好，他打心眼裡為你開心，你混的不好，他由衷的為你著急 。
4 、做自己的決定 ，然後準備好承擔後果 。從一開始就提醒自己 ，世上沒有後悔藥吃， 而我永遠有個 B計劃。
5、 自己分內的事情 ，努力做到一百分 。
6 、接受自己不過是個"小小的我" ，但眼裡要能夠悅納"大大的世界" 。
7、 如果你真的喜歡一個人，就給他自由。如果他能回到你身邊，他就是你的，如果他沒有回來，那他也永遠不屬於你。
8 、不要試圖給自己找任何藉口，錯誤面前沒人愛聽那些藉口。
9 、不要隨意發脾氣，誰都不欠你的 。
10 、不說謊話 ，因為總有被拆穿的一天。
11 、別低估任何人。
12 、你沒那麼多觀眾 ，別那麼累 。
13、 過去的事情可以不忘記 ，但一定要放下。
16 、你永遠沒有你自己想像中那麼重要 。
17 、錢能解決的問題統統不叫問題。
18 、無論何時說"我愛你"，請真心實意， 無論何時說"對不起"， 請看著對方的眼睛。
19、 永遠不要以貌取人，慢慢地說，但要迅速地想。
22 、不要覺得是生活虧欠了你 ，其實是我做的努力不夠 。
23 、努力向前，再努力向前，再努力一下下，願望就會實現 ！
24 永遠沒有堅持到底的失敗，也不會有半途而廢的成功。
25 三人行必有我師，沒有人會比你弱，好學、上進的心態。多問問自己："我努力了沒有？"。
Saturday, 2 October 2010
Friday, 1 October 2010
loneliness 20101001
- 剛想到新的原則：追求時刻。moments。
- 到底我在想什麼呢。突然大膽，好像有點違背自己的試驗。這是殺時間？是學習？是給自己一個機會？創造時刻？我到最後會不會後悔？這叫自愛抑或自棄？
- 也許該放棄了。我很喜歡你，我有點捨不得你，但也許，該放棄了。
感激你的配合，將結束點一直延後到現在。
，我每天每刻都有在想你
看見你我就忐忑不安
，你太遠了我總不知你活得如何
我卻不知怎去approach你
，你不知道，很小很小的事都成了我珍愛的回憶
茶餐廳、黑色電影就是我這年最美好的一些時刻
你應該記不起我們匆匆並肩走過情人路
唉我真係好白痴
......
說實話，找到寄託以前該很難放下吧，我仍然猶豫。
因為我真心喜歡上你。因為我已經習慣。因為日復一日，感情不得不深。
真該死。 - 世上真的有現成的朋友嗎？不是找女玩伴的男子。不是週末有空檔急著要伴去shopping 的女子。我是說可以有深刻交流的朋友。
我實在很需要一個。
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